old old old

As much as i dont want to update this thing because my time and energy have been spent else where, there are pictures i have to post before Noah and I head out to California for 2 weeks. I know when we get back there will be a slew of new pictures and I just dont want to fall behind. Today Noah is 14 months old! I'll be taking his 14 month old chair picture but i dont think a picture can quite put into words how big he has gotten and HOW MUCH HE IS DOING! Here are some pictures from 2 weekends ago when Noah joined me for a girls dinner and then when George and I took him to the park the next day. I cant wait to take him to California. He is doing so much and i know he is going to have BLAST playing and running around my parents yard with their dog while i unwind and relax from a VERY stressful summer.

Still alive

Yes I'm still alive. I've just had my plate full the last couple of weeks. Noah was sick.....again! I really think he keeps getting sick because of his allergies. As he gets older it will get easier because we will be able to put him on allergy medicine and if we need to shots. Last weekend was George's birthday and we had a real nice relaxing night here at home. I cooked some chicken and fried zucchini and after Noah went to bed we sat out on our patio and enjoyed some margaritas. It was nice for us to finally just get to talk without all the doctor appointments and studying and bickering in between. This past week i have fully engulfed myself into my school work because i only have 2 weeks left and at this point i'm just hoping i pass. I got a 77 on my stats midterm Wednesday which i was thrilled about because last time i had talked to my professor he told me to drop the class because i wouldnt make it. I'm hangining in there even though i feel like i've fallen off the earth.

Last sunday we took our usual drive out to the house and were so surpirsed to see the drywall and siding up!!! Everytime we go out there and see the progress it becomes more and more real. I have been reading alot of decorating and project blogs and George and I now have a little list of things we want to do to the house after we move in. I'm looking forward to working on some projects together because i think it will bring us closer. I have also been seeing how so many girls take old furniture and paint and bring so much potential to certain items. I was AMAZED because it never dawned on me that some of the stuff i have and dont like, or certain items i see at the thrift store can be restored! I'm excited to start working on some projects after this semester of school is over.

This weekend is aleady full starting with last night when Noah and I went to dinner with all my girlfriends. George had to work since he is staying home with Noah during the day while i go to school. So i brought my lil man along last night and it didnt turn out as bad as i thought it was going too be. All of us girls kept him entertained and as long as he had food in front of him he was happy. Noah is walking more and more everyday and he loves it! His new thing is everytime he sees me or George leave he runs to his little window and watches us drive off. It makes me so sad to see his little face in the window when i leave to school and i am just amazed at how fast he is learning things! I will post some pics from last weekend and then next week if my studying isnt overwelming i will post some from this weekend.

Giving dad hugs for his bday!

He was getting tired of chasing Chloe.

And then i told him we were going to go see the house!

Midterms

Last weekend i was suppose to be studying for midterms but instead I was taking some new pictures of my lil man. He is so funny and i have SO much fun with him! He is really climbing and LOVES to walk everywhere! I let him walk to the mailbox one evening and he just took off! As soon as summer semester is over i look forward to taking him to the park and just enjoying the time i spend with him without worrying about school.

This is an everyday occurence.

Well now we know he takes after his Mama

Noah LOVES Mac n Cheese. Almost more than i do.

4th of July! I know I'm late

Sorry these 4th of July pics are late. School is ruining my life.






Simple but sweet :)

Noah was in shock at the fireworks

Loving dogs in an understatement

bff's!

Wow my last blog was definitely a downer. My friend's death has really been on my heart and i jsut really needed to write about it. On another note, Noah has been battling getting sick at daycare and after catching bronchitis for the 2nd time in 2 weeks we have decided to pull him out. I'm happy because he gets to spend more time with George since he will be working swings (2pm- 10pm). Although he is sick Noah has been as happy as can be. He is walking everywhere and LOVES playing with Chloe. They are getting SO close and he even has his own little sound for her when we let her out of her kennel. Here are some cute pics i snapped of them last weekend in Noah's glider.

Every day

This is one of my favorite pictures. I think about this picture EVERY single day and what it means to me. But most of all i think about who is in the picture. I think about him every day. Every. Single. Day. I cant get it out of my mind. A couple of days ago i had a rough day and i just broke down. George didnt really know what was going on and i told him, i cant stop thinking about Kegan. He was quiet and just let me vent and i just couldnt stop crying. I've wanted to blog about this for a really long time now but i didnt want to face my pain. I have learned alot from Kegan's death. I have learned that there are people who literally dont deserve to be in my life. And there are some that do that i dont spend as much time with. And thats my fault. And i'd like to think some things are slowly changing. I've never had regrets. I really havent. I'd like to think that having a regret is something that just eats you up. That you cant stop thinking about because you regret it so much. I sleep good at night, theres hardly a day that goes by that i think, "Man i wish i had done this or that." But since Kegan has died i regret. I regret SO much. And i think thats why i cant get him out of my mind. Everyday i regret not spending more time with him. Not calling him, not texting him. I regret not telling him how much i loved him and appreciated everything he ever did for me. I regret. And theres NOTHING i can do to change that. I hate it. I miss him so much. And i just cant believe he's gone. I cant regret anymore. I have to make sure that i keep the people i love close. That i let my family and friends know how much i love them.

I look at that picture and i smile. We were just kids. We had so much fun. He was ALWAYS there for me. I cant count how many times he drove me home or picked me up from somewhere. I'm so glad to have known him for as long as i did. And i hope and pray that i can be half the friend to someone like he was to me. I want to be remembered as being loyal and honest and reliable like he was. Heres to you Kegan. Not a day goes by that i dont think of you. I know i'll see you one day. And me and the guys will be so happy to see your smiling face. I love you.

In motion

Here is a quick video i got of Noah walking. He usually walks all the way from his room to the living room but i think he was distracted by me recording him.

Up close and personal

Noah LOVES to look out his window and a couple of days ago i thought it would be great to snap some pics of him with the sunlight on his little face. George is starting to consider getting me a nicer camera because i love taking pictures so much. Its just a hobby i enjoy, especially taking pictures of my son, but i thought that would be nice to have a better camera. We'll see! I'll probably have to take a couple of classes too which i would end up enjoying more than the classes I'm taking now. Talk about stress! Cant wait for summer semester is OVER!



Oh, and our 4th of July was so nice and I will put some pictures up soon! I'm falling so behind with blogging and pictures because of homework.